Week 16

2016 has been a sucky year like all of the previous HAHA but..
It was fun because we were on vacation at Wisconsin dells. I tried elk burger for the first time and it was super good!! Tasted much like deer burger lol!!! It was fun to go on the water slides there and every single night and day the only thing I really ate while there was frozen yogurt!! It was sooo super duper good !! Last year I continued to grow closer to what I call my niece as she thinks I'm her aunt! I love her to pieces. I remember I like never came to school my junior year and slept all the time when I was there. Now I show up as much as possible and never sleep and now I only have after today 4 more school days left and then whatever finals I can't exempt out of. This summer I continued to work a bunch and that was nice because I saved 1,000 back up in my bank account not that it's all still there now as I have cut my hours so I can focus on school. 2016 I was hanging with my friend maddy and Jess, Jordan, Sarah and I were always doing something dumb. I remember finding different pathways with my friend spencer and ended up having to haul out of there because we weren't supposed to be there. I spent a lot of 2016 sneaking around. LOL my parents raised some crazy kids honestly but it's funny cause we have a blast. Not that we are sneaking from my parents but from friends, boyfriends, we are just dumby clayton twins. Ricky got his first apartment then we ended up moving into a bigger more homey one in Metamora. So that's awesome. OH and Ricky made his first car purchase on an actual nice newer one! Not that it's really being great itm but. Now it is December and I will be turning 18. OH and it was super fun I went black Friday shopping for the first time ever! Ricky and I sat outside of a store from 1 am till 4:20!!! Lol it was crazy cold

Week 15: What's this?

SNOW! Winter is awesome. Snow is so beautiful as it flurries so softly onto the groumd. In the mornings you wake up and look out your window to see sparkling soft but crisp white snow perfectly sitting on the trees and the ground like it is a painting from a professional artist. You can even eat it if you so desire.. but make sure it is freshly white! That was my favorite thing to do when I was little and I would make snow ice cream out of it by adding a little bit of milk and add vanilla to it! You can pack it but it will be cold. It's like having a more fun dodge ball fight and sometimes most of the time it doesn't even hurt at all!

Week 14: Turn and Face the Strange Changes

•  I didn't understand the importance of school.
•  I also had a lot of reasons to be sad which sucks b/c now I'm just sad constantly for no reason. buuuut it's life and it goes on! 
• I got back into my bad habits. Since December 11th of my Soph year I quit all of that for Ricky...and myself.
• I used to always wear headbands and do weird styles with my hair. 
• Ricky was still in HS but our relationship is better w/ him not.
• I have lost alot of friends through the duration of that time. But today I am slowly gaining my guy friends back and it's so nice b/c I have never really fit in with the girls. My whole life I have been a "tomboy" and girls just obsess over arguments and drama and I just don't like dealing with girls getting mad at me for being myself and not hanging out.  
• Things at home kind of suck right now. Well.. has sucked since my grandma passed. I mean that's not the only reason.. but anyways. My grandpa has dementia and constantly is depressed out of his mind and that's been really hard on my family. Props to my sister for taking care of him every single day, I truly admire her for that. 
• I have a job! 
• On Easter I found out where my uncle would be located. He moved away, changed his number, and stopped talking to our whole family my 8th grade year b/c of his issues w/ his kids. So on Easter I showed up at the place he was at..his parents called him outside and he didn't even recognize who I was. When they told him he almost burst into tears. He really missed me and I missed him. Sooo that's awesome.
• I have dealt with harder things happening to me..especially after this summer. But I have come into more peace with it and I'm waay stronger than I used to be

Week 13: Turkey Day Massacre

Well most turkeys have to face the end of their lives. But a smart turkey would do his research. One of the many families that don't eat turkey on thanksgiving would be the Clayton house hold. On the holidays I fly toward the Clayton homestead and hide in their grain bin. They wont eat me and they all stay inside so therefore they wont find me. Their dog might find me though that's why I have to be extra quiet for the holiday weekend. It is nice and cozy in the left over corn that I can eat in the grain bin. If they found me I truly would get shot though because the farmer Steve likes to shoot anything that the dog doesn't kill. Or that he doesn't want the dog to kill cause he's scared of it passing on diseases to the dog. But for the most part as long as I stay quiet and leave at 1 am everyone will be inside and I can leave. I will probably pack some booze though because it will be a stressful stay in the dark tin.

Week 12: On my Ipod

I love music. So many memories are associated with songs. One good memory is the song "Bad boys" (The Cop song) One night there were a crap ton of Cops posted up in washburn standing in a circle. There was like 7 different cop cars sitting by the post office. Me, Jess, Jordan, my friend Maddy and her friend John all drove past the cops with our windows down and that song blaring. It was super funny. Pretty bad that we were making a joke of it but you gotta enjoy life some how. It was a you had to be there type of thing to see the humor. Good thing the night shift cop knew who we were and told the other cops to just ignore us. Pays to have a dad good friends with all of the cops. lol.
Another favorite song would probably be some stupid songs like "What does the Fox Say" or "Twerk like Miley" ooooorr.. "Face down" My sister, Jordan, Sarah and I love to get crazy to that song while on car rides. Super fun!! We have such a good time.
One more favorite would be Shots because it reminds me of the night when it was like 2 am and maddy and I were in one car  and Jess, Sarah, and Jordan were in another and we were driving around town and pulling onto the side of the roads or hiding our car through alleys playing "Car Hide & Seek"

Week 11: So why DID the chicken cross the road?

I feel like I remember doing this last year or something. But pretty much to retell the tale is that the chicken had a girlfriend. He wanted to give her flowers and maybe even help lay some eggs but apparently a car had to ruin it all for him. He had beautiful sunflowers, daisies, and roses. Everything I girl could want. It was a sad story really because after being hit by the car the flowers lay sadly amongst the cold, slimy brick road. The chicken then turned into a chicken dinner for hawks while the girl watched her loved one get pecked at and eaten. She gathered the flowers and kept them in memory of her loved one Jerald. She then remembered that she was drunk and that didn't actually happen.

Week 10: Horror movie showdown.

My all time favorite halloween or scary movies characters would be Chucky and Jigsaw. It's twisted because I feel like more people have a hard time running from Chucky because he is a doll and appears everywhere while Jigsaw is just screwed up in the head and some how gets people he wants revenge on and they have to do messed up things to others or thereselves which I feel like is much more  torturing than just being demolished. I would say over all there would be no competition between Jigsaw and Chuckie unless it was a competition face to face dual. Then Chucky would be the winner because he is everywhere. But if it came from who is more evil... deffiniatly Jigsaw.

Week 9: My top 10 Faves

1) My parents- they help me out alot and are litteraly the best parents ever for sure.
2) My dog! She is a beautiful husky with black and white fur and hints of red. She is the smartest dog ever. She is so sweet and never barks unless she's playing with her pops. I guess last night my cats knocked my cat's knocked down my dads vape juice bottle and my dog chewed it open and ate it all... Oh boy... She saays, "What pops i'm buzzin!" LOL!
3) Ricky- One of my all time favorite people. Litterally have been in love with this boy for almost 5 years now!
4) Peace signs) I love peace signs. I have a collection
5) I looove to decorate alcohol bottles! I now have about 65 bottles collected and decorated just sitting in my room!
6) My car. I got a new car and she's black.. my faave color
7) My phone. I know typical today's teenager.
8) Falling In Reverse, He is We, Hollywood Undead, Skrillex! :)
9) Snyder Village. So thankful for our residents. They are the sweetest most awesome people ever. LOVE LOVE LOVE THEM soooo sooo soo much!
10) Fall days :) Pumpkin Spice, Haunted House, Pumpkins, pretty leaves, leggings and boots :)

Week 8: A story in six words

For sale: Baby shoes, never worn ::

The story's pretty sad actually. The mom wasn't supposed to be able to have kids but she ended up having a miracle after trying for so long. She did everything to try and born this baby healthy. She quit her 15 year addiction of smoking, she started choosing healthier choices, she even stopped her addiction that she never thought she'd be able to conquer; alcohol. They had bought plenty of gifts for the baby as it was going to be a girl. She was 7 months along and suddenly something went wrong. She thought she might be going into labor but rather the baby wasn't breathing. The umbelecol cord had suffocated the baby by wrapping around it's neck. This really hurt the parents, especially when the mother of this child was sent to Prison for beginning a new addiction; heroin and meth. Also, she did everything she could (because of her addiction) to get rid of this baby. She punched herself in the stomach repeatedly.

Week 7:Horror Story

“My daughter won’t stop crying and screaming in the middle of the night. I visit her grave and ask her to stop, but it doesn’t help.”

 

It has been 5 years since she passed. It scares me at night when I wake up to blood dripping down my bedroom walls. I still often visit her room and rock her teddy bears to sleep. I sing a lullaby while tucking her in. She isn't here but she is alive in my dreams and I can't get her out. I hear shreaks of darkness crawling on her corpse. I decorate her grave with flowers but at dawn they die. I guess it's true that the dead is not actually dead. At night I hear knocking on glass. I look at my window and then see her reflection in the mirror. If I could go back to the day when my little girl was stolen from the front yard I would change so many things. The man asked to play hide and seek with her and I wish she hadn't fallen for it. She was just a little girl. Now her death haunts me when I sleep. Anymore my sleeping is the same as being awake. Nothing gets easier. I'm living but not actually alive. The shadows of darkness haunt me. The Old Man possessed me trying to find life, and I took my own childs.

Week 6: The Answers are in the Back

I would read about one of the best paying jobs to have in the entire world and become super educated on that so that when my unlimited amount of time finally does begin to stop I would be able to be rich. I would know everything there is to know about the best paying job. I would also read about the real causing to 9/11 because I am one of those people that just feel like there is more cause behind it. I just feel like there was more than just plain crashes involved before hand. Like maybe a bomb. idk. Also the whole traveling to the moon kind of confuses me. I just don't understand how the rocket ship really does go in a perfect line to the moon and some how lands perfectly. I just really wonder if someone has ACTUALLY been to the moon or if it was just a hokes carried on and now everyone believes it. Maybe NASA has to kill someone that revieles their secrets. IDK

Week 5: Back to the Future

Okay Doc and Marty McFly- guy .... you were wrong. It's 2016 almost 2017 and we aren't using any flying cars. But I do believe by atleast 2030 There will be flying cars. I mean there has probably been a bunch of advances since I was born in 1998 but you really don't hear or think too much about it. So I feel like I have to wait longer for something MAJOR to happen. BUT I do think that something like that will happen. I am kind of scared for the future because like I don't want there to be too much technology -.- I like it just the way it is. but regardless I am sure the government will hopefully use technology in a good way to better our way of life.

week 4: Time goes by SO slowly!!

If there was no such thing as time and just a blank slate I would probably just sleep for as long as I want. I would take everything at my own pace. I would feel so much more relaxed but then again it wouldn't give us anything to look forward to. Not necessarily that we look forward to it but because we know we have somewhere to be. Without that I feel as if it would make our life super boring after awhile of doing things at our own times. I would love t o sleep for as long as I wanted, then go to school, then go to work, then do my homework. The only thing I could see it effecting would be that if I was tired I would probably just not do my homework... even if I had all the time in the world if I knew I had a bunch of time I would litteraly never do it.

Week 3: Ask the Expert

I would be talking about sleep. I love sleeping. Unfortunately that is one of the factors that help me to waste my teen years away./.. but really if you enjoy it then it's not actually time wasted!  Sleeping is good for the soul. For me, it's the only time I really feel most comfy and happy! The best time to lay on your bed and get ready to go to sleep is when it is storming outside. I love to watch out the windows at that orangey color through the shades while listening to the rain pour down and the thunder roll in. It's a good stress reliever. The audience would probably ask me questions as to why I am wasting my life, but like I said if you enjoy it.. it is not time wasted!

Week 2: My Own Worst Enemy

I am super annoying about my insecurities, but unfortunately I can't help it. The things that I really wouldn't consider a fact and that I could argue on is that I am loved. I have so many friends and family who care about me, though I don't want to believe it. Also, I need to stop thinking that I am un-wanted by my friends and family. It's unfortunate especially that I feel that way with my family. I literally get so sad when i'm with friends because I just feel like an annoyance. One of the things that also bothers me is when someone tells me what the answer to something really is then others around me laugh at me almost in a you're stupid way. But you know what Samm, you are unique. You are smart. It is okay to not be as fast of a thinker as everyone else. You are not ugly or fat.. though you've been told it by peers at school and by your "friends." You are a different body walking earth to provide variety. S/O to those non judgemental people and to those guys that say they like girls that aren't a twig. Really boosts someones happiness and confidence. Most importantly.. you are loved.

Week 1: How's school?

School is going pretty good. I have been really stressed out though with just the simplest homework beings that I work 7 days a week... lol Or I could say 8 because I work doubles on the weekends. It really sucks because all summer I didn't get to do anything fun because I covered all 12 people in my department. Plus my own hours. So that sucked. I shouldnt work so much because school should be my main focus.. but as long as I am still keeping up with school it'll be okay. I truely hate working that much but some one has got to do it... so whatever. This heat though is ridiculous. I wish that it wasn't so hot it's so hard to stay awake. For the most part though I have a positive attitude with school. My goals are to show up every day, not sleep in class, study more, not be late to school, and to make new friends. I think I really like my human development class. Those kind of things are wwhat I am interested in. I think the class I like the least would either be my art class or my marine bio class. Something about miss Naumans Marine bio so far just has me super bored and with the hardest time ever to stay awake. Also doesn;t help that there are only 4 of us in that class. I really don't know what I am going to do about my community service hours beings that like i said I work every single day of the school week right after I get out of school. Aaaand I have no study hall. This year I have decided not to do cheerleading. Not because of what I am shooting for but because I have simply just lost interest... but I do still plan on going to some of their home games and supporting the girls (and our boys!) I wish I didnt work every day after school because then by the time I get off work I have to do homework therfore I don't get too much sleep.  Then I wake up early in the morning and drive back to Washburn from Metamora. I just get too tired at night and need to get on my homework so I stay in Metamora more often than I do at my house. haha. This blog sucks because i'm good at turning positive things into negative things, oh well. I also just wish I would stop doing this to myself and just quit work and enjoy my teen years. buuuuuuut i'm not spoiled by my parents and have to pay for my own things so. Yeah